MAZED

A million little thoughts of all kinds stuck my mind,
When my memories with you spin and rewind.
I lose control of me, my mind and heart,
And the memories appear as an abstract art.

Should I get back to you or stay apart,
And be a star away in the absolute dark.
I'm right out of my mind, my heart's mystified,
You leave me petrified, with my tensions amplified.

My heart battles my mind, the never ending fight,
One says to be with you and the other to leave your side.
Should I trust my sensible heart or my sound mind?
To trust them so true, but I ain't at all that blind.

The wildest thoughts run all around my mind,
My heart's threatened by monsters, fully entwined.
It's like counting the countless stars, leaves of neem,
Caught up in the maze, losing all my esteem.

ABANDONED ALL THE WHILE

I was abandoned, at the very first sight,
I was left in the woods, at my own plight.
Just a little innocent heart was mine,
They left me, with mother's tears covered up by rain.

I grew up on my own, taught myself life,
And found her in my path to the sharp edged cliff.
I trusted her so hard, fell for her too deep,
But she left me abandoned, once again to weep.

Then I met this man, who wept when I wept,
He laughed when I laughed, he was my dad from above.
But the monster killed him, the one he loved the most,
His habits and addictions, and once again was I lost.

I don't know the reasons, but none stays with me,
Even if they  truly loved, cared or hated me.
I was abandoned all my life, mine's a delicate heart,
What must I do? Should I live by myself or abandon the world?

WATCH ME RISE

I know that I haven't been myself since days,
I know that I've been alone and insane,
I've been running away from you and them,
I've been hiding my pain and my head's mayhem.

I'm Sorry for not letting you find it,
As I know that you have no strength to mend it.
I've been through times, tearing me down,
I've been painting my face, pretending to smile.

It's me alone, destined to fight it and win,
And none to play mine and to make me grin.
But I'm back to me today, watch me rise,
Rise against the odds, with the glow in my eyes.

I rise from the ashes, from the depths of the dark,
I rise to win my passions, bigger than the ark.
I'm fighting with the monsters of my heart and mind,
I'm on my path, so prepare yourselves to watch me rise.

LOST TO LUST

She was newly wed but a faithful wife,
He was a greatest pretender who promised her life.
She trusted him hard,  loved him to the core,
But he made her kneel, and bow to his roar.

That was the coldest night she ever had,
And he came home drunk, with wolves so bad.
They made her beg, they tore her apart,
And he was enjoying the moments waiting to take his part.

She was a beautiful girl, with a generous smile,
He was a perfect player, she was just his trial.
He promised that he'd save her from the wild,
And she trusted him blind, as her heart was a lot mild.

That was the cruelest day she had ever lived,
He said he'd show her the worlds she have never seen.
But, what he did was just tasting her skin,
While she was crying to leave her alone.

DON'T MAKE ME CRY

I do a lot besides letting you survive,
I fight with your mind, letting your joy revive.

I do a lot for you, but you make me fail,
Sharing my love to the false ones, killing the holy grail.

I make you love your people, but you fall for  the undeserved,
You make me fall frail and break for no reason of mine.

I want you to fly high, to rise up above the sky,
But you never jump ahead, I don't know why.

Why do you make me frown for no reason of mine,
I cared for you always, but you cared the undeserved.

HIDING TO RISE

He was one amongst the broke,
He was the one to eat my stroke.
I hurt him to the depths, made him drown,
I thought he was powerless, made him frown.

Then he went hiding, into the shadows of his heart,
And never uttered a word, as if completely afraid.
I felt as if I was crowned, and worshipped my own might,
But I found me being a fool, winning the false fight.

He was coming, to take me deep down,
Out of the shadows, to make me drown.
He wasn't a loser, but was the best planner,
Hiding to rise, waiting for the moment to devour.

MORTAL ME

I strive for the things that are truly temporary,
Even if they're meant to be a part of my memory.

Every penny that I work for and even my work,
Doesn't stay forever, and so is the pain I lurk.

The struggles I face and even the joy I enjoy,
Doesn't stay forever, and so are the people I love.

The people that I need and those who need me,
Don't stay forever, and thus are the world's assets and debris.

There's everything that fades away and just temporary,
But I try hard be immortal, even if I know that ain't me.

FALSE LIFE

FALSE LIFE
Indefinite, insincere and unnatural,
That's what I am, purely artificial.

I hide myself into me, push me into myself,
To meet your expectations, as I don't want to be myself.

I say that I believe it even if I don't,
I say that I'll do it, even if I know I won't.

I try to impress you, by being the "False me",
That's what make me a bot, my untamed hypocrisy.

They say that humanity feels the life,
But what's good in feeling the false life.

I don't know what I gain, by being hypocritical,
Cause I know I'm not myself, but a lifeless article.

GODDESS IN DISGUISE

GODDESS IN DISGUISE

She was the greatest woman they ever saw,
She was the only one who shared unbounded love.
She was more than a goddess, the superpower,
She was an angel, and their strongest armour.

There was a day, when she had to starve,
But she made them happy never letting out her pain.
There were days, when she had to bow,
Before the people, to let her children glow.

She never said no,  she never let them weep,
For her children, she thought, were her only hope.
She once had to fight, her husband for them,
But the lads didn't know that she did it for them.

She faced struggles to make them smile,
She nurtured them, to aim the eleventh mile.
But what all they did, was to leave her alone,
With no respect, no love, leaving her moan.

PULLED OUT OF TRUST

PULLED OUT OF TRUST

I could never forget the day, that you smiled at me,
That's the sweetest memory, the day you met me.
You showed me heavens and a lot of fairy lands,
You made me trust you, saying "I'll hold your hands".

You were my only world, source of my ecstasy,
You made them never question, our complete intimacy.
You asked me to care, and promised me the same,
But you left me behind, leaving none to blame.

When I saw you hurt, I did care for you,
But what you did was questioning me why to.
You broke my trust and left me behind,
They make me cry, the memories when they rewind.

You said that you'll stand by me, through thick and thin,
But now you make me question, "why did it even begin?"
Now I don't trust "trust" nor I believe loyalty,
Cause I believe that people are bound to cruelty.

HOPE

This day when my life turned upside down,
This day when I'm being stringed like a clown,
I still have hope, that I'll run past these struggles,
I still have hope, that I'd escape these cannibals.

Even when my people tear me down,
Even though my dear ones leave me alone,
I still have hope, that I'll meet the true one,
The ones who stay, care and never run.

Although I fail, and I lose all my trials,
Inspite of hardwork, but indeed denials,
I still have hope that I'll win someday,
And the day's just around, not even halfway.

LEARNING LIFE

This day I'm here, while you bid me farewell,
Remembering those days, as my tears dwell,
They taught me whole life, pain and all struggles,
The times I was on cloud nine, life's looped spheres,

From the times I succeeded, to those I failed,
May it be my studies, or be my futile feelings,
They made me realize that life's a garden of roses,
Which is filled with thorns which make me bleed.

The days that broke me, the people those hurt me,
The syllabus of life, with teachers around me,
And the ones who taught me, how to succeed,
The chemistry of life, besides physical chemistry.

These days made me strong, from in and out,
Strong enough to face and survive a drought.
I learnt to be me, and to face it all by myself,
For it is a game of choices, of which I've to choose myself.




Student life teaches a lot. Every experience is a lesson to be learnt.

INHUMANE HUMANS

Trying to achieve the impossible,
Longing to be called "invincible",
We build this world with all our might,
Just to tighten it up with never ending fright.

We fool ourselves in the name of progress,
We hurt ourselves in the run for  excess,
Materially bound and emotionally isolated,
We feed upon the fools, mentally disarmed.

What's out there? Just hatred all around,
Dying while living, this left me spellbound.
What's that we hear? Cries of the innocent,
Marching down the valleys, wishing death to confront.

Pride wins today, if you bow then you die,
A promise is just a word, better called a lie.
On the long run for success, we lost our utter selves,
And trust me, we're truly "the inhumane humans".

AMIDST THE APOCALYPSE

This isn't the world it has to be,
This isn't the future we were destined to be.
Destruction everywhere, insanity unfolds,
Just trying to conquer even alien worlds.

We see clouds no more, but there's smoke to see,
No water to drink, but lands descending to depths,
Oceans harbour no turtles and no seals,
But tonnes and tonnes of garbage, not even the eels.

The human psyche's losing it's humanity,
In fact, it's no more humane, with thoughts sunk in insanity.
Cruelty all around, people kill their people,
For things all material, providing feelings quite unnatural.

Innocent lads left unnoticed, and noticed ones ravaged,
Chiseled out of trust, for being falsely loved.
Lives destroyed, thus running into eclipse,
I'm afraid, I might die, walking amidst this apocalypse.

INHERITANCE OR WORTH

I met that man, enjoying the inheritance,
Indulged in pride, and immersed in joy.
He was quite reckless and quiet responsible.
He left the work undone, as if it was a speck.

Then I met this gentleman, enjoying his worth,
Involved in exercise and surrounded with respect.
He was a lot prudent and a lot less rash.
He was untiring as if the work imbibed divinity.

What may I enjoy? My inheritance or worth?
Who should I be? The heir or the wise?
Forgetting failure or longing to succeed?
Accepting assets or trusting my will.

PLEASE STAND BY ME

I was alone when I first met you,
When you talked to me passing hopes anew.
It was so pleasing, the time with you,
It broke my desolation and didn't leave a clue.

You made me happy, I was almost on clouds,
I lost my pain, my ecstasy knew no bounds.
I didn't have a thought of leaving you,
And then I heard you say, "I'll stand by you".

I always thought that you'd stick to me,
I always dreamt that you'd never lie to me,
But what you payed me is my loneliness back,
Oh! What was it? A present or a payback.

It was all a lie, that you've ever said to me,
A false promise which meant you'd never leave me,
I am in need of someone who'd care for me,
I need you by my side, please stand by me.

BROKEN

I did care for you, loads and lots,
And you left me alone, with no more thoughts.
All I required was just a glimpse of my care,
Back to me from the only one, I always did care.

I always retained you, when you left me forgotten,
I always admired you, when you left me unnoticed.
All that I needed, was just a bit of your friendship,
Which appealed me like the celestial endless ocean.

All I needed was just you and your care,
All I needed was a bit of attention and just tiny response.
I'm now surrounded by shadows, in the wild you left me,
You left me all alone, all alone and completely broken.

But I'll rise from dejection, erasing my pain,
Crossing all odds, I'll grab what I need to gain.
I'll never step back, due to the ruins of this pain,
I'll cross the galaxies, and I'll show what I mean. 

ONCE UPON A LOVE

We were in heavens, when it sprouted, our love,
We were lost into ourselves, to the skies and above,
Your care was so immense, with the touches all so warm,
Your love knew no bounds, it took me to a fairy realm.

Your hugs assured me of my reliance upon you,
Your words brought me delight, so did my trust on you.
But then it happened, suspicions arose, grew hard and cold,
Breaking my trust and hopes upon you, the dissimilar you.

Even to this day, although we're united,
It isn't the same, as it was before it ended.
Your hugs embarrass me, your words are just words,
I talk you, but I never feel it, even sense it in you.

A GLORIOUS DREAM

I was standing alone, it was all so dark,
Deep within the wild, away from the ark.
I found a bright spark, amongst the woods,
Then I ran to the depths, to be left amazed.

I saw'em all, the ones in fairytales, epics and relics,
A huge stream of water running down amidst the rocks,
Surrounded by flowers immensely large,
They were smiling out smoothly, letting me barge.

I saw ponies and beautiful unicorns running,
Down the hills, clearing my mind of everything.
I climbed up the hill, with the ponies and unicorns,
They took me up with'em, my felicity was out of bounds.

There was a gorgeous castle, shining in glorious dawn,
It was sparkling blue between the gardens of dandelion.
I was amazed, I was out of my mind,
That I went paranoid, whether I'm alive or dead.

FUTURISTIC

In search for the extraterrestrial,
In pursuit of achieving the metaphysical,

Transcending speeds, being supersonic,
Crossing universes, discovering the baryonic.

Talking to people, not just physically,
Even after they die, but alive mentally.

Learning the rules of the quantum realm,
Defying gravity and then bending time.

Traversing worlds, crossing wormholes,
Harbouring stars and even blackholes.

Harnessing energy, not just nuclear,
But even from the stars with the Dyson sphere.

And I almost forgot being nostalgic,
As this world's driving me lunatic. 

UNSEEN LEGACY

I saw myself, experiencing my strength,
I saw myself, immersed in respect,
I saw myself, enchanting success,
And I saw myself, leading the world.

I saw people, crowning me king,
I saw people, praising my lead.
I saw people, enchanting my name,
And I saw people, following my path.

I was invincible, I was the sole heir,
I was infallible, I was the prince.
But then it happened, I opened my eyes,
To realize it all, a good glorious dream.

Why'd It be a dream? why not true?
Why can't I be me, the one in my dream?
I know I have the potential, to fulfill my dreams,
To build my empire, and be the sole emperor. 

IT TAKES TIME

You're in pandemonium, a state if uproar,
As all your trials fail, with success offshore.
But what you don't realize, is that it all takes time.
May it be growth or be it success.

It takes time for a foetus to grow, full fledged in a mother's womb,
It takes time for an infant to breath with complete force,
It takes time for a baby to walk, and to run in joy.
It takes time for a seed to nurture, to grow into a plumping tree.

Fruits rain down a tree, only when they are ripen full fledged,
But there will be times, when the tree gets no fosters.
No vitals, no water, no resources, no shine,
But never does it give up, it rises from ashes as a new sapling.

Son, I say, rise as a Phoenix from ashes, when there are purposes left.
Never stop your trials, rise above the ruins,
That's how you succeed, and bring heavens down to earth.
That's how you develop and lead all the worlds.

ALL ALONE

ALL ALONE

I always thought I didn't need y'all,
You all were a mess I couldn't cope with,
You all seemed like distressed beings to me,
Thus, I wished that you'd vanish from my world.

But when I woke up this morning,
I found you nowhere, not even one.
I walked down the path, to find atleast a being,
My dream came true, there was no one left.

I was elated, I began to run,
Down the endless path with zero bounds.
The world was mine, I was the emperor,
With no one to stop and none to preach.

But it wasn't so long, my amazing felicity.
I began to remember all my folks,
My parents and siblings, my friends and best ones.
I realised it all, I wasn't at all contented.

My people are me, I need'em all,
I have no purpose, no life without'em.
Living with none to laugh or to annoy,
I'm now alone, all alone.

-The Conscience  (Tarang  Garlapally)